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2:51AM

Darkness comes from within…when all your hopes and dreams are dashed. Just a lost soul with no one to love but with much love to give. Why does this hurt have to exist? Why can’t there be someone to love me for who I am? I’m just a lost soul…forever wandering the face of the earth…in search of something or someone. Why is it when I give my heart away to someone it either gets abused or thrown back at me? Do I inflict this pain upon myself? There’s darkness all around. We live in a world of emotional heartache and despair. Too much violence and anger exist on our planet. No one seems to really care why people do what they do. It is all of us whom impale this darkness upon this earth. Emotionally spent, this lost soul continues to search for a way to move beyond the pain and co-exist in a happier world. 

Written by someone named Robin, but i so relate.

Current mood: crushed

6:20PM - if wishes were words...

Life is fleeting.

As You are well aware, all W/we have is today.

Who knows about tomorrow.

What i do know is that i love being with You.  And all i wanted was more of that - being WITH You, so i could feel that way more and more each day...and who could blame me?

i no longer know if You still feel that way, but if You do, please contact me.

i do not "feel" You anymore, and to be frank, it's disturbing to think You loved me and no longer think of me.

i just want to come home.  Do You?

Current mood: nostalgic

12:41AM

i am not supposed to be sleeping alone tonight...and yet i am. again.

Someone is supposed to be working and answering Their phone, and well They aren't. Answering Their phone, that is. Kind of hard to know what to think at this point. i do not do well with this long term silence, which always occurs at the times in my life where it is hardest to handle. Why? Because i am sleeping alone again. But You know that already, because You are there - wherever "there" is - ignoring my phone calls. again.

Tomorrow had better live up to its promise. i am seriously owed at this point and that tips the balance of power in the wrong direction, i fear. i no like it.

WAH.

Current mood: discontent